Classes start Monday

I know I haven't been posting much, but I've been on break and there really hasn't been much to post to be quite honest. I've been lazing around all day. I kind of feel bad for sleeping until noon every day lol :P

I met James last night (I kind of feel weird calling you James >_>). He's a nice person :) if a bit.. direct. lol. Four of us had dinner in the Boston area. It was a bit awkward for me at first, as I've never been with people who know that I'm gay, but I became more comfortable as the night progressed (no I wasn't drinking >_>). Overall, it was a nice night.

I move back into my dorm tomorrow afternoon... classes for the spring semester start on Monday. I need to find an internship, but there aren't many in my area. :/
I mean, I can apply at seabrook, but even if I get that internship, I don't have a place that I can live while I'm working there for the summer. I'd end up having to like, get an apartment. And not just that, but I'd end up having to buy a car as well. It's just annoying. Yeah, I know, I should have a car anyway. But I just haven't had a need for one. I take the bus to class.

Sigh. Oh well. I'll have to work something out. Hopefully my professors can help with the internship thing. Most of the nuclear-based internships in my area are medical, which isn't really what I'm looking for...

I guess that's all for now... this post is longer than I thought it was going to be.

*hugs*

Another Questionnaire

I actually pulled this one from a particularly old post of Ben's blog.

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
My hair.

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Grey. It's actually a Guiness hoodie lol. I don't even drink beer. (er.. much >_> I did have a beer at my uncle's house last week)

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
This assumed I've kissed someone...

4. Do you plan outfits every day?
Well I take my clothes out the night before so that I can shower and dress in a timely manner. I don't do much planning though. Pretty much a pair of pants and a hoodie that somewhat match in color is what I wear every day. Or a tee shirt if it's warm out.

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Kind of tired, actually...

6. What’s the closest thing to you that's red?
The red face of my rubik's cube >_>

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I burned my index and middle fingers of my right hand on.. something. I can't quite remember what. It was odd because I woke up with all the pain of actually having burned my fingers :S

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
No :/

9. What are you craving right now?
Does sex count? lol :P Actually, I would like something salty right now...

10. Do you floss?
It's weird, I do floss daily at school when I brush my teeth, but when I come home for holidays, my hygene habits just go out the window :/

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Cabbage smells terrible when it's cooked.

12. Are you emotional?
Not nearly as emotional as most women. I think. Maybe yes. I don't know now.

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Actually... yes >_> I was little and we were driving for a really long time so I counted cars that went past and stopped when I passed 1,000.

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Both. When I bite it, I bite it with my lips rather than with my teeth. Is that strange?

15. Do you like your hair?
Yes I suppose. My uncle called me a mop and said I look like a Beatle. I might decide to cut it soon.

16. Do you like yourself?
How, exactly? Physically? Mentally? Physically, I rather dislike my body. Mentally... well, I can't say no... but I'd like to have less anxiety.

17. Would you go out to eat with George Bush?
Depends on what the occasion is. I would probably just so that I don't seem rude saying no.

18. What are you listening to right now?



19. Are your parents strict?
No >_>

20. Would you go sky diving?
Probably not. Does that make me a coward? :S

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
I can't honestly say that I've ever tried cottage cheese.

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Not to my knowledge.

23. Do you rent movies often?
No.

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
Well, yes. There are several ceramic dragons in my room decorated with glitter. BUT they do not look gay :P

25. How many countries have you visited?
Other than the US, since I live there... 3.

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
No.

27. Ever been on a train?
I do not believe I have, actually.

28. Brown or white eggs?
Umm.. don't they taste the same? IDK we usually buy white eggs.

29. Do you have a cell-phone?
Yes.

30. Do you use chap stick?
Blistex's Lip Medex

31. Do you own a gun?
Not one that fires real bullets.

32. Can you use chop sticks?
Probably, I haven't tried in ages.

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
Nobody...

34. Are you too forgiving?
IDK I can hold a grudge for quite a while.

35. Ever been in love?
Unlikely...

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
I cannot honestly say that I definitively have a best friend at the present moment. My best friend from childhood kind of split off and went a different way and I haven't ever bonded with anyone else that closely.

37. Ever have cream puffs?
Ummm.... what are cream puffs?

38. Last time you cried?
When our pet bird was dying...

39. What was the last question you asked?
Hmm... I asked my brother if he had homework earlier today.

40. Favorite time of the year?
I must say the holidays. I like seeing all of my extended family and having the break from school.

41. Do you have any tattoos?
No. It's possible I could maybe have one in the future. Probably not though.

42. Are you sarcastic?
I don't have a word to sufficiently express the extent of my sarcasm.

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Yes, and it's a great movie.

44. Ever walked into a wall?
Does a door count?

45. Favorite color?
Purple. Or Orange. Damnit, this question was on the last survey too.

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes.

47. Is your hair curly?
It's got some natural waves in it, but I wouldn't classify it as curly.

48. What was the last CD you bought?
That I bought with my own money? Nightwish's End of an Era disc, I believe.

49. Do looks matter?
My morals tell me to say no to this question, but honestly I'm not sure I could find myself physically or sexually attracted to someone who isn't at least *somewhat* decent looking...

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
I don't think so... Like I said before, I can hold a grudge for a long time.

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
Not as far as I know.

52. Do you like your life right now?
I suppose so. I'd like to be out though.

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
No.

54. Can you handle the truth?
I think that this question could be elaborated on, but I think that my answer is yes. I consider myself to be a mentally strong person. Though, I don't know how one would go about testing this >_>

55. Do you have good vision?
Not at all, lol. My prescription in my glasses is -2.75.... I can't see crap without my glasses or contacts.

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
I can't say that I truly hate anyone. But dislike? well, yes. But probably not more than 3.

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Not much. I absolutely HATE talking on the phone.

58. The last person you held hands with?
Nobody. Unless you count my mother when I was a child.

59. What are you wearing?
Briefs, socks, sweatpants, and a tee shirt. Do I need to list jewelry? I have a high school class ring, a necklace, and 2 bracelets (one on each arm). I suppose my glasses could be listed as well.

60.What is your favorite animal?
Probably dogs. Maybe cats. I can't decide.

61. Where was your default picture taken at?
Default picture for what? If you mean my license, then... at the registry of motor vehicles. If you mean my facebook photo... I took that myself, in my room.

62. Can you hula hoop?
I don't know, can I? I haven't tried it in a long time.

63. Do you have a job?
I'm currently a student. Though, I suppose my work study position would place me as a Lab Assistant in the Chemical Engineering labs.

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Food >_>

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes, I do believe I have.

The Kitten! (And a belated Merry Christmas)

So yeah, I haven't been online much the last few days, but I'd like to offer a belated Merry Christmas to everyone who celebrates it (and even those who don't). And Happy New Year as well. :)

So, here is the kitten (I will try to get daylight photos where I don't need the flash, but she isn't always exactly awake and/or playful during daylight hours).

Click the pictures to make them larger.

She's so maniacal.

Okay so that's it for now :P

*hugs*

P.S. I felt the need to be juvenile enough to point out that this is my 69th post >_>

My mother called me....

Apparently we now have a new kitten. There was a lady down the street whose cats had litters, and she was giving the kittens away for free. Our new kitten is all black with long hair, and from the picture my mother sent, is adorable.

So that's one good thing in a week of studying hell. I have something to look forward to now :)

About being obsessive-compulsive

I'm not sure if I have ever mentioned this on the blog explicitly, though I am sure I have told some of you over msn- I am obsessive-compulsive.

What this means, for me, is that everything I do must retain a certain amount of symmetry. For instance, if I step on a crack while I am walking, I must step on a crack with the other foot in the same spot, or it won't feel "right." When things don't have this certain symmetry to them, it drives me up the wall. It also means I take forever doing my laundry >_> especially the socks.

The other thing the disorder does is it puts strange thoughts in my head sometimes >_> Like, I'll think "I CAN do this, not that I ever would, and these would be the consequences..." and then later I'll be like, so why do I care? I don't really, but there's not much I can do to stop the thoughts. I think that the difference between this and depression is that the thoughts are not necessarily dark or depressing. They are just there, pointless and unwanted.

The reason I don't see a therapist about this is.. well, frankly, I just don't want to. But that's not the only reason. The disorder tends to make me strive toward perfection in my schoolwork, and I'm kind of afraid what would happen if I started medication to make it go away.

You should also know that I have never told anyone what is in those last two paragraphs, and I'm still not sure whether or not I want to leave this posted...

>_>

Today, I was told by a classmate that I write my notes and homework like a teacher. I'm not entirely sure how I should feel about this. >_>

And then there were 5.

So in-class exams are now finished, and all I have left are 5 final exams, starting next thursday and ending on december 21st. My schedule is: 1 exam thursday, 1 exam friday, 1 exam saturday, 2 exams monday. So the semester is nearly finished :D (This semester has sucked enormously, and not in the good way).

Oh yeah, and we had snow earlier. Lots and lots of snow. In fact, they should have canceled classes, in my honest opinion (I'm not just saying that because I had an exam). The roads were horrendous. The bus I take got stuck on the way to campus, and the terrifying part was, we started to slide forward... sideways. The bus was literally in both lanes, sliding up the hill sideways, and would have hit a line of cars if it hadn't straightened out in time.

Well, that's all the news I have for now. I still have homeworks and stuff due friday and monday, so I need to finish those at some point.

*hugs*