Well okay, I had morning classes. But classes from noon onward were canceled. Which works for me, as it got me out of Heat Transfer (which means the homework isn't due until friday now). The funny part is, it's not even that bad out. The snow hasn't even really stuck on the roads. Which is ironic, because last time it snowed the roads were horrendous, and classes were still in session. I think the chancellor is just trying to avoid more angry emails.
On a side note, I haven't had a haircut since september. Normally I have a military cut, but I decided to let it grow out. I might point out that my mother hates this. I considered posting a picture here, but I decided not to. If you talk to me regularly on msn, you've seen me anyway. I think I'm going to go get it trimmed, as it's begun curling in the back. Since it isn't curling anywhere else, I think it looks kinda stupid :S
On another side note, I just had to close and reopen firefox. Know how when you have the internet window open, it displays the name of the web page at the top and at the bottom on the task bar? Well I seem to have managed to make firefox display those in japanese. I should also say that how I managed this is beyond me- I am baffled. However, closing and reopening the browser seems to have reset it to english.
Oh well...
Oh yeah, and since today was a snow day, I have no idea if the shuttles are still running. Which means, if they aren't, then I can't make it to this supposed Pride Alliance group meeting- if they are even still meeting tonight. *sigh*
10 February 2010
02 February 2010
I think I have a crush :O
So yeah, this one boy in music theory. I kept finding myself... watching him. Is that weird? He has a lot of the same habits and mannerisms that I do. Touches his face a lot, like I do. Rests his head in his hands the same ways that I do. Does this funny thing with his feet where he puts one foot on top of the other, just like I do. He wears an old baseball hat that just makes him even cuter. Is it weird of me to notice these things? IDK. Hes hot though :S
28 January 2010
Almost.
I almost made a comment that totally would have outed me today.
I guess if I'm going to tell this story then I should first say that there are 3 bisexual girls in my classes. Everyone knows they are into girls as well, and... well, nobody cares. (So basically I'm not sure why I'm still so scared.)
Anyway, a few of us were sitting in the computer lab earlier today, and one of the girls was talking about how she could always point out all the guys that were gay when she was in high school, and that when they came out later in college, she was like 'it's about time.' To which I desperately wanted to respond with one of two comments:
"So, what about me? Am I gay?"
or
"So, can you tell that I am gay then?"
I almost did it. It was at the tip of my tongue. But I held back. I'm not sure why... it was a good opportunity to just do it and get it over with. *sigh* oh well. I might talk to her later when I'm more comfortable. I'm just not sure how these girls can be so comfortable with the idea of being attracted to the same sex. They talk about how they had crushes on certain girls in high school, and I'm just like... o_O thanks for sharing I guess...
But even if I did manage to come out at school, doing so to my family would be COMPLETELY different. I'm not sure that I can....
I guess if I'm going to tell this story then I should first say that there are 3 bisexual girls in my classes. Everyone knows they are into girls as well, and... well, nobody cares. (So basically I'm not sure why I'm still so scared.)
Anyway, a few of us were sitting in the computer lab earlier today, and one of the girls was talking about how she could always point out all the guys that were gay when she was in high school, and that when they came out later in college, she was like 'it's about time.' To which I desperately wanted to respond with one of two comments:
"So, what about me? Am I gay?"
or
"So, can you tell that I am gay then?"
I almost did it. It was at the tip of my tongue. But I held back. I'm not sure why... it was a good opportunity to just do it and get it over with. *sigh* oh well. I might talk to her later when I'm more comfortable. I'm just not sure how these girls can be so comfortable with the idea of being attracted to the same sex. They talk about how they had crushes on certain girls in high school, and I'm just like... o_O thanks for sharing I guess...
But even if I did manage to come out at school, doing so to my family would be COMPLETELY different. I'm not sure that I can....
27 January 2010
Why is this group so damn hard to find?
I went to find this supposed pride alliance group on campus. According to the email that I received, they meet on wednesdays at 6pm on south campus. Well I went to the specified room, on the specified day of the week, at the specified time, and nobody was there (I went once last semester as well, also to find nobody there... I don't think I mentioned that on here). Do you have any idea how much this infuriates me? I built up the courage to go (twice) and found only disappointment (twice).
I'm going to send her another email...
I'm going to send her another email...
25 January 2010
So yesterday...
I moved back into the dorms. On my way here, I stopped at a convenience store to buy a half gallon of milk, and the cashier called me 'hun.' Oh yeah, and it was a man. >_>
So that's my awkward moment of the week. Not that I minded, of course :P
Anyway, I got 3 of my text books this semester from one of the students that's a year ahead of me. All 3 books for $100 (that's a great deal btw- they would have cost over $100 EACH at the bookstore). And, since 2 of the books this semester are the same, I only have 2 books left to buy (I think). My Heat Transfer book, which new is like... $170. But the bookstore has used ones, last time I checked. Unfortunately I hadn't brought my check book along with me, so I hope they still have a used copy there tomorrow morning. The other would be the Basic Music Theory course I signed up for, as a general education course. But I'm not entirely sure that it even has a textbook. I guess we'll see.
By the way, I continue to find myself making eye contact with one of the boys in my classes. I'm not sure why >_> I don't honestly think I'm worth staring at. (He is though :P)
*hugs*
So that's my awkward moment of the week. Not that I minded, of course :P
Anyway, I got 3 of my text books this semester from one of the students that's a year ahead of me. All 3 books for $100 (that's a great deal btw- they would have cost over $100 EACH at the bookstore). And, since 2 of the books this semester are the same, I only have 2 books left to buy (I think). My Heat Transfer book, which new is like... $170. But the bookstore has used ones, last time I checked. Unfortunately I hadn't brought my check book along with me, so I hope they still have a used copy there tomorrow morning. The other would be the Basic Music Theory course I signed up for, as a general education course. But I'm not entirely sure that it even has a textbook. I guess we'll see.
By the way, I continue to find myself making eye contact with one of the boys in my classes. I'm not sure why >_> I don't honestly think I'm worth staring at. (He is though :P)
*hugs*
23 January 2010
Classes start Monday
I know I haven't been posting much, but I've been on break and there really hasn't been much to post to be quite honest. I've been lazing around all day. I kind of feel bad for sleeping until noon every day lol :P
I met James last night (I kind of feel weird calling you James >_>). He's a nice person :) if a bit.. direct. lol. Four of us had dinner in the Boston area. It was a bit awkward for me at first, as I've never been with people who know that I'm gay, but I became more comfortable as the night progressed (no I wasn't drinking >_>). Overall, it was a nice night.
I move back into my dorm tomorrow afternoon... classes for the spring semester start on Monday. I need to find an internship, but there aren't many in my area. :/
I mean, I can apply at seabrook, but even if I get that internship, I don't have a place that I can live while I'm working there for the summer. I'd end up having to like, get an apartment. And not just that, but I'd end up having to buy a car as well. It's just annoying. Yeah, I know, I should have a car anyway. But I just haven't had a need for one. I take the bus to class.
Sigh. Oh well. I'll have to work something out. Hopefully my professors can help with the internship thing. Most of the nuclear-based internships in my area are medical, which isn't really what I'm looking for...
I guess that's all for now... this post is longer than I thought it was going to be.
*hugs*
I met James last night (I kind of feel weird calling you James >_>). He's a nice person :) if a bit.. direct. lol. Four of us had dinner in the Boston area. It was a bit awkward for me at first, as I've never been with people who know that I'm gay, but I became more comfortable as the night progressed (no I wasn't drinking >_>). Overall, it was a nice night.
I move back into my dorm tomorrow afternoon... classes for the spring semester start on Monday. I need to find an internship, but there aren't many in my area. :/
I mean, I can apply at seabrook, but even if I get that internship, I don't have a place that I can live while I'm working there for the summer. I'd end up having to like, get an apartment. And not just that, but I'd end up having to buy a car as well. It's just annoying. Yeah, I know, I should have a car anyway. But I just haven't had a need for one. I take the bus to class.
Sigh. Oh well. I'll have to work something out. Hopefully my professors can help with the internship thing. Most of the nuclear-based internships in my area are medical, which isn't really what I'm looking for...
I guess that's all for now... this post is longer than I thought it was going to be.
*hugs*
06 January 2010
Another Questionnaire
I actually pulled this one from a particularly old post of Ben's blog.
1. First thing you wash in the shower?
My hair.
2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Grey. It's actually a Guiness hoodie lol. I don't even drink beer. (er.. much >_> I did have a beer at my uncle's house last week)
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
This assumed I've kissed someone...
4. Do you plan outfits every day?
Well I take my clothes out the night before so that I can shower and dress in a timely manner. I don't do much planning though. Pretty much a pair of pants and a hoodie that somewhat match in color is what I wear every day. Or a tee shirt if it's warm out.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Kind of tired, actually...
6. What’s the closest thing to you that's red?
The red face of my rubik's cube >_>
7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I burned my index and middle fingers of my right hand on.. something. I can't quite remember what. It was odd because I woke up with all the pain of actually having burned my fingers :S
8. Did you meet anybody new today?
No :/
9. What are you craving right now?
Does sex count? lol :P Actually, I would like something salty right now...
10. Do you floss?
It's weird, I do floss daily at school when I brush my teeth, but when I come home for holidays, my hygene habits just go out the window :/
11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Cabbage smells terrible when it's cooked.
12. Are you emotional?
Not nearly as emotional as most women. I think. Maybe yes. I don't know now.
13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Actually... yes >_> I was little and we were driving for a really long time so I counted cars that went past and stopped when I passed 1,000.
14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Both. When I bite it, I bite it with my lips rather than with my teeth. Is that strange?
15. Do you like your hair?
Yes I suppose. My uncle called me a mop and said I look like a Beatle. I might decide to cut it soon.
16. Do you like yourself?
How, exactly? Physically? Mentally? Physically, I rather dislike my body. Mentally... well, I can't say no... but I'd like to have less anxiety.
17. Would you go out to eat with George Bush?
Depends on what the occasion is. I would probably just so that I don't seem rude saying no.
18. What are you listening to right now?
19. Are your parents strict?
No >_>
20. Would you go sky diving?
Probably not. Does that make me a coward? :S
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
I can't honestly say that I've ever tried cottage cheese.
22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Not to my knowledge.
23. Do you rent movies often?
No.
24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
Well, yes. There are several ceramic dragons in my room decorated with glitter. BUT they do not look gay :P
25. How many countries have you visited?
Other than the US, since I live there... 3.
26. Have you made a prank phone call?
No.
27. Ever been on a train?
I do not believe I have, actually.
28. Brown or white eggs?
Umm.. don't they taste the same? IDK we usually buy white eggs.
29. Do you have a cell-phone?
Yes.
30. Do you use chap stick?
Blistex's Lip Medex
31. Do you own a gun?
Not one that fires real bullets.
32. Can you use chop sticks?
Probably, I haven't tried in ages.
33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
Nobody...
34. Are you too forgiving?
IDK I can hold a grudge for quite a while.
35. Ever been in love?
Unlikely...
36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
I cannot honestly say that I definitively have a best friend at the present moment. My best friend from childhood kind of split off and went a different way and I haven't ever bonded with anyone else that closely.
37. Ever have cream puffs?
Ummm.... what are cream puffs?
38. Last time you cried?
When our pet bird was dying...
39. What was the last question you asked?
Hmm... I asked my brother if he had homework earlier today.
40. Favorite time of the year?
I must say the holidays. I like seeing all of my extended family and having the break from school.
41. Do you have any tattoos?
No. It's possible I could maybe have one in the future. Probably not though.
42. Are you sarcastic?
I don't have a word to sufficiently express the extent of my sarcasm.
43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Yes, and it's a great movie.
44. Ever walked into a wall?
Does a door count?
45. Favorite color?
Purple. Or Orange. Damnit, this question was on the last survey too.
46. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes.
47. Is your hair curly?
It's got some natural waves in it, but I wouldn't classify it as curly.
48. What was the last CD you bought?
That I bought with my own money? Nightwish's End of an Era disc, I believe.
49. Do looks matter?
My morals tell me to say no to this question, but honestly I'm not sure I could find myself physically or sexually attracted to someone who isn't at least *somewhat* decent looking...
50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
I don't think so... Like I said before, I can hold a grudge for a long time.
51. Is your phone bill sky high?
Not as far as I know.
52. Do you like your life right now?
I suppose so. I'd like to be out though.
53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
No.
54. Can you handle the truth?
I think that this question could be elaborated on, but I think that my answer is yes. I consider myself to be a mentally strong person. Though, I don't know how one would go about testing this >_>
55. Do you have good vision?
Not at all, lol. My prescription in my glasses is -2.75.... I can't see crap without my glasses or contacts.
56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
I can't say that I truly hate anyone. But dislike? well, yes. But probably not more than 3.
57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Not much. I absolutely HATE talking on the phone.
58. The last person you held hands with?
Nobody. Unless you count my mother when I was a child.
59. What are you wearing?
Briefs, socks, sweatpants, and a tee shirt. Do I need to list jewelry? I have a high school class ring, a necklace, and 2 bracelets (one on each arm). I suppose my glasses could be listed as well.
60.What is your favorite animal?
Probably dogs. Maybe cats. I can't decide.
61. Where was your default picture taken at?
Default picture for what? If you mean my license, then... at the registry of motor vehicles. If you mean my facebook photo... I took that myself, in my room.
62. Can you hula hoop?
I don't know, can I? I haven't tried it in a long time.
63. Do you have a job?
I'm currently a student. Though, I suppose my work study position would place me as a Lab Assistant in the Chemical Engineering labs.
64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Food >_>
65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes, I do believe I have.
1. First thing you wash in the shower?
My hair.
2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Grey. It's actually a Guiness hoodie lol. I don't even drink beer. (er.. much >_> I did have a beer at my uncle's house last week)
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
This assumed I've kissed someone...
4. Do you plan outfits every day?
Well I take my clothes out the night before so that I can shower and dress in a timely manner. I don't do much planning though. Pretty much a pair of pants and a hoodie that somewhat match in color is what I wear every day. Or a tee shirt if it's warm out.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Kind of tired, actually...
6. What’s the closest thing to you that's red?
The red face of my rubik's cube >_>
7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I burned my index and middle fingers of my right hand on.. something. I can't quite remember what. It was odd because I woke up with all the pain of actually having burned my fingers :S
8. Did you meet anybody new today?
No :/
9. What are you craving right now?
Does sex count? lol :P Actually, I would like something salty right now...
10. Do you floss?
It's weird, I do floss daily at school when I brush my teeth, but when I come home for holidays, my hygene habits just go out the window :/
11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Cabbage smells terrible when it's cooked.
12. Are you emotional?
Not nearly as emotional as most women. I think. Maybe yes. I don't know now.
13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Actually... yes >_> I was little and we were driving for a really long time so I counted cars that went past and stopped when I passed 1,000.
14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Both. When I bite it, I bite it with my lips rather than with my teeth. Is that strange?
15. Do you like your hair?
Yes I suppose. My uncle called me a mop and said I look like a Beatle. I might decide to cut it soon.
16. Do you like yourself?
How, exactly? Physically? Mentally? Physically, I rather dislike my body. Mentally... well, I can't say no... but I'd like to have less anxiety.
17. Would you go out to eat with George Bush?
Depends on what the occasion is. I would probably just so that I don't seem rude saying no.
18. What are you listening to right now?
19. Are your parents strict?
No >_>
20. Would you go sky diving?
Probably not. Does that make me a coward? :S
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
I can't honestly say that I've ever tried cottage cheese.
22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Not to my knowledge.
23. Do you rent movies often?
No.
24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
Well, yes. There are several ceramic dragons in my room decorated with glitter. BUT they do not look gay :P
25. How many countries have you visited?
Other than the US, since I live there... 3.
26. Have you made a prank phone call?
No.
27. Ever been on a train?
I do not believe I have, actually.
28. Brown or white eggs?
Umm.. don't they taste the same? IDK we usually buy white eggs.
29. Do you have a cell-phone?
Yes.
30. Do you use chap stick?
Blistex's Lip Medex
31. Do you own a gun?
Not one that fires real bullets.
32. Can you use chop sticks?
Probably, I haven't tried in ages.
33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
Nobody...
34. Are you too forgiving?
IDK I can hold a grudge for quite a while.
35. Ever been in love?
Unlikely...
36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
I cannot honestly say that I definitively have a best friend at the present moment. My best friend from childhood kind of split off and went a different way and I haven't ever bonded with anyone else that closely.
37. Ever have cream puffs?
Ummm.... what are cream puffs?
38. Last time you cried?
When our pet bird was dying...
39. What was the last question you asked?
Hmm... I asked my brother if he had homework earlier today.
40. Favorite time of the year?
I must say the holidays. I like seeing all of my extended family and having the break from school.
41. Do you have any tattoos?
No. It's possible I could maybe have one in the future. Probably not though.
42. Are you sarcastic?
I don't have a word to sufficiently express the extent of my sarcasm.
43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Yes, and it's a great movie.
44. Ever walked into a wall?
Does a door count?
45. Favorite color?
Purple. Or Orange. Damnit, this question was on the last survey too.
46. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes.
47. Is your hair curly?
It's got some natural waves in it, but I wouldn't classify it as curly.
48. What was the last CD you bought?
That I bought with my own money? Nightwish's End of an Era disc, I believe.
49. Do looks matter?
My morals tell me to say no to this question, but honestly I'm not sure I could find myself physically or sexually attracted to someone who isn't at least *somewhat* decent looking...
50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
I don't think so... Like I said before, I can hold a grudge for a long time.
51. Is your phone bill sky high?
Not as far as I know.
52. Do you like your life right now?
I suppose so. I'd like to be out though.
53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
No.
54. Can you handle the truth?
I think that this question could be elaborated on, but I think that my answer is yes. I consider myself to be a mentally strong person. Though, I don't know how one would go about testing this >_>
55. Do you have good vision?
Not at all, lol. My prescription in my glasses is -2.75.... I can't see crap without my glasses or contacts.
56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
I can't say that I truly hate anyone. But dislike? well, yes. But probably not more than 3.
57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Not much. I absolutely HATE talking on the phone.
58. The last person you held hands with?
Nobody. Unless you count my mother when I was a child.
59. What are you wearing?
Briefs, socks, sweatpants, and a tee shirt. Do I need to list jewelry? I have a high school class ring, a necklace, and 2 bracelets (one on each arm). I suppose my glasses could be listed as well.
60.What is your favorite animal?
Probably dogs. Maybe cats. I can't decide.
61. Where was your default picture taken at?
Default picture for what? If you mean my license, then... at the registry of motor vehicles. If you mean my facebook photo... I took that myself, in my room.
62. Can you hula hoop?
I don't know, can I? I haven't tried it in a long time.
63. Do you have a job?
I'm currently a student. Though, I suppose my work study position would place me as a Lab Assistant in the Chemical Engineering labs.
64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Food >_>
65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes, I do believe I have.
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